Tired of the nonsense,
dead asleep from the punch of the narcotic,
I should've stopped myself when my heart spoke instead of logic.
No, right now I'm busy,
we'll argue about this later.
The familiar scent and flavor of the woman you once savored,
has soured.
Bitter beyond utter recognition,
on a mission to try and compensate for all the time she's missin'.
So,
lately I've been thinking of greener waters.
Not this fake marriage with cats for sons and daughters.
With a kiss and I love you but an always blank stare.
You endeavored to ignite the torch,
instead you light flares,
watch pop off, spark and there,
you have it,
a temporary glimpse of your triumph,
then back to darkness, black enough to wipe away the glares.
I asked you once to love me and you gladly took the dare.
With a smile and a nod you walked off on thin air.
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Godly demeanor,
with hardly the time to give it up,
seems like the priority of 'me''s turned from full to half a cup.
Fuck it,
if I'd known I'd be doing nothing now,
I would've ditched the smiles just to wear my old frown.
Yeah, boy you got me down.
Self esteem is getting antsy.
The xanax I've been eating ain't doing nothin' fancy.
Trancey, spaced out and half hearted you can be,
I can't find myself truly wanting to be free.
Rid of it?
No,
I've got too much in tow,
now there's nothing left to hold but he's still holding me even though,
he's probably just as sick of it.
Damn.
I'm tired of existing, where's my hearse?
I called, the said thirty minutes.
It's been nineteen years since that phone call,
and the money got spent with no chance of being reimbursed.
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